Despite this, for some reason I got a sudden urge to draw... it's almost 12 pm and tomorrow I'll be busy all day but if I dont act on this rn I probably wont for a while again
I was so happy because I finally got repentance but forget it, now there's a bigass black screen and I can't play the game, great.
It's that time again, where I feel weird and sad even though nothing has happened....
I would kill myself because im scared of what might happen with my parents and because im very flawed in a lot of ways but I value the posibility of being a girl too much to act on it
Also that means I'll never kill myself, probably
I feel like I need to tell someone irl that im trans, I know I shouldn't but I just need.
Im kinda scared I may say something about it out loud infront of my friends, it almost happened before so idk anymore it might happen ahain
I don't think I hate being a guy, I just much rather be a girl. It's like, would you rather eat only bread for the rest of your life or be able to pick from a 5 star buffet of food for the rest of your life.
Friend told me a guy has a crush on me.......... I felt so damn nice, I was gonna talk to him but like... he is 2 years younger than me, so like next year I would be 18 and him 16, I can't do that shit....... Nothing ever happens I guess.
I could live being a boy my whole life, and maybe I would if there was "another chance", but that isn't possible.
I am almost never picky, I would be fine with almost everything in life, but the few things I do want, I really really want them
I'm always stuck in the cycle of
1: "Man I'm so damn sad that (bad thing/situation) is happening... I wish it gets better soon..."
2: "My (bad thing/situation) is finally fixed!!! Yayy I'm so happyyy!!"
3: Actually no fuck you, you're back in that shitty situation
4: "Ok."
