ime calling ocd anxiety disorder doesn't do justice in describing that nagging feeling that comes with "some brain subsystem locked you in mental prison until you find definite proof that this thing you are most afraid of isn't true" (you know proof doesn't exist but the subsystem doesn't care)
everyone says you should not mix gabaergics but have you considered that phenibut will still stay decently active in the morning so it blunts a lot of the hangover?
"moral hangover" more like cringe hangover
it's almost funny that you may seem more normal in this state because your algorithm on [how a normal person behaves] may superficially seem more normal than you with your full spectrum of human emotions
it has a lot of common with dp/dr i guess
petty vindictiveness is a major red flag for this genre of person btw
it comes with feeling like that all your emotions, fuck, whole sense of personality not related to the topic of obsession is distorted and unreal
yet you have to overcome this and run simulation of how you think you would normally be because [you don't know how to be yourself]
like benzos work well on associated anxiety but not on that feeling itself, the actual qualia are not similar to anything i have experienced before, it would be like explaining acid trip to someone who never done psychs
www.youtube.com/watch?v=ilJ-...
I'll be alright, I'll be alright, I'll be alright
repetitively repeated like by someone trying to persuade oneself despite deep in the heart *knowing* it's a lie
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"abuse thrives on scarcity" as a yimby slogan
ugly crying in the subway type of day
does feel kinda relieving in the end luckily
