But can I really stay awake, knowing how easily I suffer from migraines at the slightest upset of my well being? HAAAh, probably not but OH WELL, I GUESS, RIGHT? RIGHT???
Nobody actually cares, AOSF. Get real!
I'm so terrified. I only got two hours last night and those weren't even at home!
I'm back, now. Safe, alive, everything intact. but I just can't get the possibility of another recurrence out of my mind. I'm absolutely losing it. I don't know what to do anymore.
And it's so invisible that no one quite grasps the exhaustion, discomfort, or brainfog it can bring about. Literally anything simple can be needlessly strenuous to do, and couple that with my already apparent executive dysfunction and it's an honest to goodness cyclic mess!
Add a social woe on top of that? Don't worry! Postdrome is often one step ahead of you, such that you don't look before you leap and do something twice as stupid as you would under normal anxiety. X~X;;
Sincerely hoping for some patience/understanding regardless... And deep apologies if I slip up.
One of the things that sucks about migraine postdrome (so like... AFTER the debilitating attack) is how vague a time it can be. From how long it lasts to whether or not a migraine is gonna bounce back into being to torment you another day, should you misstep.
To whoever out there might be wishing me or anyone I love ILL, just STOP. This ends NOW.
I've had TWO fires happen close to my home, 6h apart! I fear for my 30 years of artwork, and I'm THIS CLOSE to losing my marbles to a possible hyper-vigilance that won't allow me to rest easy at night. AT ALL.
I seem to be having a prolonged anxiety episode and I kinda just wanna apologize for that. No one should have to deal with those things, even secondhand.
Everything I poured out the past few days comes from a place that has yet to truly heal in any capacity, and I take full responsibility for it.