having one of those "severely nonverbal burns out really fast" kind of springs ig
I've always been pretty open about my mental and health struggles, and I wanted to mention that its been worse lately. I do try, but pressing "live" is hard, and I haven't been pushing myself to do it as often as I'd like to. March is a really hard month for me 😔
i spent 2 hours this morning setting my stream stuff back up, energetic and excited to go live again, only to have the wind knocked out of me and a huge wave of exhaustion and anxiety spike. one day, yall.
Also now that I've officially shown the model on stream, here's Meli 4(?).0!!! More like 500.0 if we're counting tweaks made to the last one, but I adore this model. Huge thank you to Suiika for making such a beautiful model and having such a fluid TOS for edits. I'll show the full model later on!
THAT SAID - I WILL be streaming Wednesday (26th) at some point, for my birthday. I don't really like birthdays and they make me really sad, and last year I streamed that day too so I'd like to make it a habit and spend it with you guys instead of my depression cave!