Now I can't maintain a conversation online anymore at all. Messages are challenges to dread, always with an obligation to respond when something gets dropped in your lap with no context or prior meaning. I miss when talking was easier.
Back in the day when I was ready and hopped on IRC it felt like a night out with friends. Conversation flowed naturally and it felt productive even if it was just teenage bullshitting.
I think about this constantly. In my particular case I specifically am definitely annoying and unwanted by the people around me, but you? You should reach out to that person. You should definitely make the first move and socialize because you'll probably brighten their day. But I probably shouldn't.
No I definitely don't use humor and/or sarcasm to deflect discomfort.
Unrelated to everything around this situation I had my first therapy session recently.
Dunno if it was the greatest but the era of LiveJournal,IRC, and message boards was probably the peak of feeling community online.
Or I was just a teenager.
I miss the pre-"always online" days. I miss away messages and ways of signaling that you don't feel like a conversation at the moment without the phych warfare of read checkmarks. It meant that socializing was still an active activity online, not a passive one.
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