Months ago, I started to properly chat over telegram with a guy I'd kinda known for a few years. I never imaged it would lead to us dating but I'm so glad it has
Happy Pride Month everybody! 🏳️🌈
I've been realising just how few people I actually talk to recently
I've dropped contact with so many folks over the last 2 years for different reasons
I haven't been making the effort to get to know new people or form friendships. I genuinely don't know if I remember how to and that's scary
I don't know why my head is the way it is, and I don't like. I can't enjoy things like I should be able to. I feel like I'm constantly being punished for something
"I don't know why"
Yes the fuck I did. Just refused to think about it
Took a week away, admitted to myself the impact this has had on me and I've decided that I need to change how I'm interacting with people, both online and in person
It will take time for me to heal from this but I can't let it keep holding me back
I need to be able to do stuff for me and enjoy it!
I hate having panic attacks. I don't know why I have them but I do. I was was having such a good day and it's just been ruined
I'm doing a thing
I am going to take a break from the fandom for while
I was the victim of sexual violence by another furry in 2023 and I never properly processed it
I feel like I need to distance myself for the moment
Most of you are fantastic people and I'm sorry that 1 person has ruined this for me