I'm interested in a variety of fish, including herring, anchovies, sardines, mullet, minnows, and carp. I also enjoy crustaceans (like crayfish, crabs, and shrimp), amphibians (frogs and salamanders), and sometimes small turtles.
Pelican
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Because that’s what we have been forced to do.
Many, many autists have the experience of someone neurotypical becoming irrationally upset at some odd bit of something we said.
And it just happens again and again. So we learn to anticipate what the emotions of the other person might be & self-edit.
And it even happens on here. Through BlueSky.
There is no way to avoid this.
There is no way for an autistic person to express themselves that will stop every neurotypical from getting upset for reasons even they don’t really understand.
We should stop trying to manage their emotions for them.
I am proud of being autistic.
I am proud of my autistic kids.
But wow we endure just endless maltreatment at the hands of other people. To the point where other people don’t even notice they’re doing it. Endless microaggressions.
It hurts us in ways we don’t yet fully understand. All this is new.
And it is so impossibly insidious.
Because we always have to worry about whether no matter what you say or do some neurotypical might take offense and mistreat you.
Because that happens to us *all the time*. Not because we’re dicks. Because *they’re intolerant*. Not because of anything we do.
What I find difficult to express to people who didn’t also grow up like this and come up as adults like this, is just how pervasive it is.
Things you didn’t even think of that you realize you spent huge amounts of emotional energy and time on your whole life that turned out to be always pointless.
On some level it’s extremely important to realize this extremely freeing idea: there is no possible way for an autistic person, no matter how well educated, to avoid generating revulsion in certain neurotypical people. It’s their thin slice judgments, you see.
Not us being bad at communicating.
A live session coding a procedural tower of bricks. Turned out ugly, I fixed it a bit in shadertoy after I closed the recording:
youtu.be/DAMiS2PGTEE
But then we learned that most if not all neurotypical people really *can* tell us apart almost instantaneously.
And so then I realized that my whole life, no matter how good I got at being a silver-tongued attorney - and I was objectively very good based on my wins - NTs never stopped othering me.
One of the things about being autistic is that even through the internet neurotypical people can tell who you are and for reasons they do not fully understand they want to yell at me.
I have spent my whole life trying to figure out how to express myself in a way that minimized that occurrence.
