It’s just hit me I’m going to have to tell another person about my father within the like next week ish
And I’m not loving that
I honestly try to forget he exists because talking about him comes with talking about one of the most sensitive topics probably ever and that isn’t fun
On the topic of things I hate
Speaking up for myself. It makes me wanna puke and die (probably at the same time)
God I wanna be done with this all
Free me from the hell that is GI complications
Sometimes I look at my coping mechanism and just have to tell myself “at least it’s not drugs”
Cause if that’s the standard I’m doing amazing
Having littles in the system means stuffed animals just got put on our “talk about in therapy today” list and it is 100% serious 😭😭
After a little bit of googling idk if gallstones are the cause of my symptoms
It’s mostly right side pain and upper abdominal pain according to the Mayo Clinic and that’s like 1% of my symptoms and not even full story of the 1%
So either we ain’t got the full picture or the Mayo Clinic is wrong 🙃🫠
For once in my life I’d like to be wrong
It seems as tho I may have accurately project another disorder/condition
My doctor said the gallstones are likely not causing issues rn which means I was right 🫠
I just wanna be wrong once and it actually be a tiny small fixable issue 😭😭
I am so done with the constant appts
I have one tomorrow
One next week and
One the week after that
And just medical stuff not therapy or MH based treatment
I hate being an adult. I had to wake up early to make some phone calls and
I hate it. I want sleep. I want to not have to be responsible
It’s gonna be some sick and twisted joke if I have gallstones and delayed gastric emptying
I’m considering finding god and fighting him if I have both cause he’s not as funny as he thinks he is