i'm not going to die
but i'm a person who suffered her whole life.
i feel like i never really appealed to anyone
i'm just really that desperate for my dreams to come true.
suicide isn't the option for me
i want to be sleeping forever, in my own world where i can finally have peace and achieve my dreams that i have always wanted
i feel like this is the end for me
i want to move on. i should probably start fresh on the internet again, or maybe i shouldn't be on it at all, neither as a living organism