i think i'm kiind of hoping that making a website will be a centering exercise and let me attempt to relearn who i am while also having a space free from social media metrics. knowing that people at all times can see my posts and engage with them is freaking me out
need to lock in on a website soon cause i never feel comfortable talking here or even on twitter sometimes. it all feels forced
i'm having a really hard weird time the last few days and today is especially bad cause ive had a weird pain in my chest + stomach. it seems t obe going away now but it was freaking me out. idk i feel like i'm going crazy lately
is this anything
Fen @ ACID BATH IN 3 MONTHS
neurotic prey animal gf (hiatus)
neurotic prey animal gf (hiatus)
neurotic prey animal gf (hiatus)
i definitely dont feel like myself and i think i dont reallly know who i am so thats cool. i feel permanently detached from my identity and ive felt like that for a while. i dont feel like i have an identity at all and im constantl/y relying on those around me to tell me who i am
i think im going to just block bsky and twitter and fuck off for like ea week or two idk i'm really not well
if you really need me i'll be on SL, discord, and irc
i'm probably gonna delete all this in the morning i'm just feeling a kind of way lately and its making me want to bash my head in with a brick
