i dont want to have to be skeptical of everything . i want to be able to trust the people who ive spent the majority of my life with . why does the world allow evil to exist :c
/thinking they had changed
they are selfish, manipulative, and seem to not care for me at all besides meeting my basic needs . thats all theyve ever been interested in..i dont understand how ive gone three months thinking theyd change
if anything, i think im in a worse spiral than i was before
annoying.
idk what to do, ig theres not much i even can do
while yes this has continued, ive been realising recently that literally nothing else in how they view me has. additionally everyones still friendly with my grand dad who has said some pretty awful transphobic things about me. my mum *said* she was cutting him off. that hasnt happened!
i always go extra slow on the crosswalks just to annoy the cars
