while i wish those fake internet points weren't given at all, you just have to ask yourself if withholding them is worth making the entire fandom a completely hostile place for real authors who want to share their work with you.
i am surrounded by people who have immense privilege and i don’t know how to have conversations without lying to them about the state of my life because it’s so depressing meanwhile they’re like homeowners happily married going on international trips every year
you should engage with fandoms because there's something there you love, and i understand the urge to protect it from slop, but truly this is simply not the way. it does far more damage than good over something that is just impossible to prove.
anyway. i hate my life so much i can’t daydream anymore because i can’t even picture a fictional life where i‘m not in pain.