For the record the other person was someone who I liked they but wanted a relationship and I told them no. I desperately need the help but now inhave one less people because of can't let that person pursue me romanticly. It's been a little over a week for fuxks sake. I'm not ready.
Give the ex the satisfaction of knowing how badly they fucked me up. Why would they respect the boundary of sontnread my internet poats? It's the prefect way to know exactly how much damage they've done. They prlly get a kick out of it.
I'm so fuxkjfn broken. I tried not to get broken. Inthouhhh I made it out ok but i didn't. Instill got broken. I still had this take things from me. I still dontnhave the oomph towiten these anymore. Whonthenhell wants to watch someone have a slow breakdown in real time. Partnof me didn't want to
Well there it is. That's my fuxked up as 9f late. Now you're free to run away too. Abandon me like everyone else ever has. Feelsnlike you've abandoned me anyway. Imma go put my game face on now. As ofnthisnverymoment I don't know if I'll be bavk on the 17th or not. You're gone. My friend is gone.
But I'm all triggered so fuck it. I really need people now who aren't tryif to get into my pants. But me being captain. Dumb dumb overdhare prolly scared my friend off by telling just how not ok I really am. Now I just hav more reason to cry.
I don't have time or eneergy to really take pictures anymore. I don't havebthe energy to write more bullshit of "yup more crap I can't talk about ans immsad". What's the fuxkjfn point..
I havenone last post I've been sitting on since October when I took pictures of all my art. I'll post ifnthis
Month. After the 17th but I don't know when. Ifnwushrs were fishesnl the sea would be full. I wish things went differently. Instill wishbyoubwere here. I wish incoukd see you again. If wishes were fishes the sea would be full.
I've lost damn near 10bls in q0 days. I'm just not hungry. Instill cook for kiddo. I just don't have the urge to eat. I still eat a little but obviously not enough. I can't sleep either. Everything in that room still looks the same. After my floor crying I usually drag myvass to bed after midnight.
But I was also figuring who the fuck what's to watch me unravel in real time. I'm falling apart behind the seen. Bug fuxk it now I'm gonna tell all you too and watch you run away too. By 10 pm every night since wednesday the kid is alssp and I'm on my floor crying for a few hours.
I csme back to write to my internet friend, but they deleted their account. I didn't even see their last message. That's 2 people I've chased off in the ladt 24h. Cool. There's zero reason for. E to be here before the 17th now.
