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sarah 🐶🦴
this is what the mcm 24 picnic could have been for me if i had been around in the fandom 6 months earlier / i had been medicated for anxiety at that point so i could physically go and say hi to all the cool people i admired instead of lingering awkwardly 💔💔
the Stress™ of having a plan for the day but the plan only takes up like 4 hours so then it's like Well What Do We Do Now and the answer is watch tv / read / do a crossword / whatever, exactly what we'd do at home, but that feels Wrong and Wasteful because we're on Holiday and we're Doing It Wrong
partner is mid chronic pain flare up. it's raining every day. there are so many fucking flies. (why does the south east have so many flies???? i swear there are more flies in this cottage right now than i see in a year in cumbria what the fuck)
okay another thing that this has made me remember: i find holidays so stressful because there's this implicit WELL YOURE SPENDING MONEY SO YOU HAVE TO GO MAKE THE MOST OF IT energy that i find exhausting and anxiety inducing and it will make me shut down immediately
we didn't even spend money on this we're staying at my parents holiday let for free lmao and it's STILL stressful (and for the record my partner feels p much the same and we basically never go away for more than 2-3 days usually for this reason but whew. it's So Much.)
