Sorry I’ve been busy 🚶♀️Apparently I bitched enough to land myself doing some inventory work for the company my dads worked for longer than I’ve been alive, so hoo ray for that. Bc apparently some form of nepotism is necessary to get into anywhere these days. Ffs
Anyway, yea. It was something!
Did the adult thing and finally went to the dentist. The rng pull that I only need 3 small fillings and a root canal/ crown after several years is stupid lucky… I never intended to be without coverage, I just kinda suck at trying to survive without help and don’t know how to ask for it turns out
Guess the biweekly job search humiliation ritual got to wait on account of the ground sinking behind my garage, what the fuckk
Why am I even still trying is the better question at this point. This is just a fools errand, every time I do I’m putting on the clown makeup and wig
I’m just tired of living in relative poverty, it’s worn me down mentally I am so burnt out that offing myself rly doesn’t seem like a bad idea lmao
They had catering and that made me realize how undernourished I am actually eating enough for a change. There’s no way to remedy the problem fully unless I keep a job and have an income though. You don’t get to eat if you’re unable to keep making money 🤷♀️ its punishment for my own failing in life
Currently losing it b/c I need to see a dentist about this molar thats super sensitive and needs to be restored but I cannot rule out whether or not they have the Death Juice shot there and if they do, can’t rule out whether or not they’d force it on me for being poor/anxiety riddled 🥀
Been on a paranoid doom loop about this issue for 6 months now
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