Sigh, this is hurting so much. 😕 We'll get there Eli. We have to somehow.
My adoptive father (who is amazing) said he heard me screaming "fuck you dad" in my sleep a few times. I think he was worried it was about him. I assured him it was definitely about the biological one. I hope he believes me. Dang.
Tryna get accidentally squished
I overdosed on a bunch of shit in 2016, and he came to see me at the hospital. But all the drugs gave me no filter, so I just unloaded everything I felt about him. Just words. He started to get aggressive like he was about to actually fight me. But other family was around to prevent that.
And that's the last time I saw himmm. Just squared up staring at me with his face mad af like he wanted to beat me. He's frickin big too. Dude was really into bodybuilding. I was too high to be scared, so I just called him a coward for threatening violence and walked off into the night crying lol.
Anyway, I apologized to that friend I ghosted. Didn't make excuses for it, told her I get it if she doesn't want to forgive me, and that she did nothing wrong. And she really said I can't forgive you, because there's nothing to even forgive, we're totally good. Like so chill and nice about it.
Why is YouTube Musics AI softly whispering at me like it's trying to seduce me
Get outta heree
It was like two years, and she was not upset at all, and just seemed happy to be able to talk again? That she was just hoping I was ok. Regardless, I'm not letting myself off that easy. I need to hold myself accountable and do better, 'cause I don't appreciate that I did that.