I relate to this a lot. Like something in my brain tells me that my friends don't really want me around and I'll commit some kind of unforgivable sin if I ask to do something or ask to participate.
Sometimes I think that living in what now is clear was an abusive household where ever expressing a want or a need was treated as a huge inconvenience or problem really fucked me up.
I react poorly when I feel like my needs/wants are being validated because it's actually hard got me to assert
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Seth Rogan is remaking it
Did a 4.5km treadmill walk during my shift and then a 3.5km interval run at the end of it as my workout 🐆
those wants or needs in the first place. So something small feels like a big deal to me and I shut down if it feels like me expressing that created even a small inconvenience
