I cleaned the pantry out today, tossing out things that were expired or had just been sitting there for too long.
The pantry is still as full and messy as it was before.
Of a very difficult year, the last few weeks have been intense. I'm feeling wrecked, emotionally and physically. I'm trying my best and nothing is working out and I'm just not sure what I should do.
I went to visit my dad after his surgery today. On top of the anxiety of getting up there, parking, and finding my way to his room, I had the brain chaos of listening to my dad praise the surgeon while blaring fox news that was airing a tirade against science.
I spent 3 hours cleaning and organizing the garage today. It's nice to accomplish something.
I'm so tired.
As much as I love the Hoopla app for being free and part of the library, I wish it played audio books without so many glitches.
I am not emotionally strong enough for chapter 28 of Nona the Ninth but goddamn is it such a good piece of writing.
I've applied to almost 100 jobs in the past few weeks. A few were long shots, but the majority have been exactly what I've been doing for the last 10 years.
The rejections with "your skills don't match our needs" are so disheartening. I've done literally every single thing in the job description.
Out of hundreds of job rejection emails I've gotten, my favorite are the ones claiming they "changed the criteria for the position and are no-longer accepting applications".
I respect the creative approach to "you're not good enough".
Another 50ish applications sent out today. All but a dozen or so were for exactly what I've done for 10 years. And those dozen were still in the same ballpark with plenty of skill overlap.