(also my body is mad about it, i felt like i was almost approaching getting in better shape for a bit there and now i'm back to the stairs being a problem again among other things. already. fuck)
weird loop
weird loop
can't seem to work well today so i'm gonna work bad instead by turning my brain off and letting the bad-at-things bunny within me start on a thing so i can come back and finish it correctly later
"ask youtube" no i don't think i will. put the regular search back or i will turn mountain view into mountain piss (by burying it under 500 feet of piss)
midgar if it was made of woims
i should be asleep. however i am in: pain,
unscrewing the top of my head and jabbing myself in random parts of my brain until it works better
i miss having access to a cobaltflux DDR pad (it was 20 years ago!) but more importantly i miss my body being Okay Enough to actually use it without doing even more damage to my lower extremities
(look it's been days since my 2nd-hand mini-elliptical all but exploded on me & i'm still mad about it)