I’m still feeling really gross btw. my doc has been out of the office since I realized the supplements might be doing a number on my already existing problems. but like how am I supposed to know the difference between side effects and stuff I already deal with. this is why I don’t like doctors.
ui* I don’t know. the brain fog is really bad now.
oh hi. so apparently the high dosage vitamin d I was given can have a significant effect on my mental health and nobody warned me.
neither of us handled it very well and it turned into an argument between me and my husband too. I feel very bad. I wish I could have kept myself together and held space for the little guy. I've already apologized and told him he's loved but I'm already so depressed that it feels like nothing is
ever going to get better. I keep trying my best and it's just days until the next bill is due. hours until my kids are hungry again. I feel like I'm losing this race and I know it's probably just my chemical levels are off or something but this isn't a fun feeling. I can't stop crying all the time.
I know a lot of people like to be like “this is a distraction from this thing or this thing” but I think if there’s a UFC fight on the White House lawn… I mean there could be no misunderstanding this bread and circus thing right?
G'raha Enthusiast - My Lord Estelle
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my -internal medicine- doc doesn’t think these symptoms are related because they’re mostly mental so vitamin d 50,000 iu wouldn’t have any effect on it. I’m losing my patience with western medicine.
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my phone really don’t know how to predict me and it shows.
anyway, apologies for having mentally unwell on health issues on the timeline. hopefully I’m working through it all but who knows. it comes in waves and stuff.
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today was the first time in a very long time my son had a meltdown. I've already shared about how he's autistic and he's just become a teenager. he's been so well-regulated that we didn't have our de-escalation kits ready. we've been stressed ourselves so we weren't properly regulated.
