Look out! Its a reference sheet! And I like how it came out. Its not like super clean but I sorta like that. (I'll need to find a brush that can give a clean sleek look but for now, i like messy!
one sided friendships alot of the times and fen always gives the benefit of the doubt in some way shape or form. Fen is ALWAYS willing to communicate. Always willing to take the inconvenience if it means a stable relationship but its never reciprocated at all.
Fen feels like fen is living -cont-
a suggestion was passed onto me. I wanted to draw a chubby or bulky character. Did I do pretty good at not butchering this one's character?
#TOH
VENT www.youtube.com/watch?v=0cGN...
Fen accidentally watched a video and it resonates to fen for sure. It still is a long journey to being a good fen and fen wants to keep improving on fenself. Cont-
If you havent done it yet, just for one day. Look to your friend, family, whoever has your back through thick and thin. Who has made you felt safe communicating and just being REAL with them. A moment of gratefulness can go a long way. Just saying it as cheesy as it sounds will matter so much.
Tried to doodle up a background. Backgrounds are hard. Probably gonna be watching alot of videos about how people make backgrounds work then trying to work it in a way that makes my brain go "Ohhh, I see now!"
Reflecting on fen's flaws and trying to better it even just a bit but nothing tears fen down more than when things out of fen's control steers into a direction that could have worked out if it had more understanding and communication.
Fen often hates being fen cause fen feels like fen is -cont-
Thank you for reading me and understanding if you got this far. I cant expect anyone to do anything. The only thing I can control is myself.
I wish for great unbreakable friendships that holds communication and understand over pride and narcissism!
Sorry for the negative energy this post. Fen RARELY ever does this cause fen always wants to look forward with hope and optimism but sometimes these feelings will resurface and when they do, it hurts alot.
a weird reality with broken people who refuses to even try to look at things. Fen isnt sure what the expense is to those that refuse. Is it pride? Is it public reputation? A lack of trust? Or is it just blind?
Fen just wants to live a simple and comfortable life. Is really that a bad thing?
