NB, She/Her, Demi (But Taken), 18+
YouTubin'/Streamin' girlfailure just tryna do her best!
Someday, I'll have a mic... ( っ´ω｀c)
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WorstGamerLilly
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If I treated them like shit, sure. But I communicate, I accept when I'm actually to blame, I say "good morning" and "have a good evening", I stay in my own lane.
Some people are just. Like this.
And I can't do shit about it.
Can't even have a place of relief from it.
WorstGamerLilly
I'm just tired.
I'm really tired.
And if they're holding my fucking panic attack over my head, and THAT'S their ostensible excuse, I'm sorry that my life has to be unbearably hellacious and that I can't control shit like that.
And everyone loves these co-workers, too. Everyone loves each other.
I'm the damn outlier.
If they're being passive-aggressive, calling me "you know who", and blaming me for their shit 'cause I look miserable, awesome, maybe if they actually matched my communication and didn't make me miserable, I'd actually be able to mask what my home life does to me.
Well screw you, YouTube algorithm, I LIKE the funny pipe thumbnail!
Get me the fuck out of here, oh my god. Why are they like this.
I'm stopping drawing daily, by the way. I don't want to, knowing everything about me, but. It's too early to do daily.
It's inadvertently triggering a lot of trauma trying to do it. If I keep going like this, I'm gonna kill myself from stress.
yep
And to add. The co-worker that hates me the most is the one I'm forced to work closest with.
I'm basically working under her and not my boss.
God, if only I could report her. I wish. I frickin' wish.
It's like life wants me to feel worthless. Something anyone can practice and refine and it's so difficult it's literally killing me slowly for me.
