art & silly thoughts
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jay ☻
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funny how suddenly you find yourself wanting to ask your mother how granny is doing bc it's snowing and you always talked to her about the weather but she is gone for 3 years now.
old habits never go with them, huh?
it's tiring to maneuver social rules that make no sense and not get lost in all the nonsense people say and not say a thing at the same time.
just tell me you like me. straightforward. i'll gently tell you my feelings, whatever they are, i promise.
this constant limbo of guessing is 🫨
i'm having my final asd diagnosis appointment mid february and the more time passes the more nervous i become.
the first appointment was quite chill and the psychiatrist actually the nicest one out of those i had in the past but i'm so nervous and don't know what i'll do with the answers.
just make me never find any man ok in any way so i can move on live a happier life and never fall into the trap of developing a crush ever again.
and how do you know if someone likes you?? i actually don't know and was always so totally wrong when i thought someone liked me in the past lol.
and i'm scared to show too much in case i am wrong yet again. 😮💨
literally been seeing u.s. accounts having "frozen" videos, even just tarot reading accounts, left and right.
but then listening to the new american tiktok owner or whatever he is, it's not mind boggling to witness and all have seen this censorship coming. it's and outrage nontheless.
how does it feel to have someone yearning for you? watching you from the sidelines, admiring you, getting lost in the mundane things you do, all the while thinking "wow, i like them".
and a person you actually like back.
i really wanna know how that feels. so long it has only been me doing that.
thx to pcos i'm on my 3rd week of my period and my raging hormones making me miss people i shouldn't. also feeling miserable on top. it's so stupid.
