25 he/him, gay bear :03
Lead developer of Uneven Dream. Made "INSULTED" and "Mizu". Loves Yume Nikki Fangames. pfp is Fantic from Gogo's Crazy Bones
Warning I post political opinions a lot!
YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/@nex1788/
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FOR GODS SAKE I MENTION IN MY BIO I TALK ABOUT POLITICAL SHIT. IF YOU CANT EVEN HANDLE A SPICY YUME NIKKI TAKE OF ALL THINGS MAYBE DON'T ENGAGE.
I am done being a quiet, hesitant and sensitive little shithead who isn't sure about anything. I want to do what I want, and own that!! Fuck you and what you think!
Sometimes I want to solve this problem by just, finally going apeshit. Raah. I want to spit back in the face of everyone who was actually mean and condescending even in the subtlest of ways to me. Fuck them. I want to come up with my next best creative clapback, my punchlines!
This especially came from the librarian who worked there. I dunno I was just afraid of her. I could NEVER read what mood she was in, and that was frightening. One second she spoke with a jeering smile, the next she snapped to a child "GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY LIBRARY, YOU PAIN IN THE ASS."
I started having this thing ever since I got out of Provo Canyon School. Had to stay there for 6 months. Although it did make me a better person - as in my tweens I was becoming a rebellious violent degenerate who refused to go to school - it still left me with a lot of trauma.
It happens every day, it's worse if I'm out in public, and I just stop enjoying myself. Even mom notices and asks if I'm okay. I have a blank or sad stare on my face like I'm about to cry. If I'm just at home, I can snap out of my trance if I force a gasp, shutting my eyes and shaking my head.
And then every single time after being assertively told off and lectured for what I did wrong, or if I have a rather embarrassing moment, my mind just frames this moment in a mental wall of shame. Without warning my mind slips into this "hallway" and I go into a trance. This shit happens every day.
Show: Heckle and Jeckle
Language: Spanish
Country: Mexico
Version: CINSA
I always conflate hearing constructive criticism and people being assertive with me, with people actually not liking me and being mean to me. So even if people are saying "Ok nex, you really oughta do this instead of just...", I hear "Fuck you nex, I don't like you, you filthy pig."
"Call me a child left behind the way this Bush got me going stupid." - Posted in the Texas Blazblue server
