Why is it on these flare-up type days I can hardly walk do I have to work late in poor conditions. Excessive heat warning today. 100°f but feels like 107°f because of the lack of breeze. I might as well be the egg cooking on the sidewalk. 🫠
I'm hoping I can host my own vrchat birthday party next week. It would be nice to celebrate with others. Any fun world suggestions?
My physical and mental health are rapidly declining tonight. Trying to recover after a breakdown. I just want to do art and feel some sense of normalcy. These health problems are stealing my life from me. It's getting harder to remember things. I'm tired of living in a blurry fog all the time.
I didn't realize how long the unintentional hiatus from commissions has been. I really need to get them done. Health issues and burnout have been kicking my ass. I'll try to get out more wips this week if I can. Thank you for everyone's patience during this time. I'm sorry it's taking so long.
Feeling a little better after getting some comfort food, checking in with friends, and spending time with Autumn. It was a struggle getting out of the car again, but at least I'm home now and can stay off my legs for the night.
Baps you with ✨the beans✨
The commission I got from Stup1dfuckk on Instagram just came in!
Today is already starting off rough. Blood ox was 86 last night. Dragged myself to work feeling drunk with how out of it I am. In overwhelming pain on top of the blazing summer heat with little relief from the fans. Will be working by myself again it seems. Today is going to be rough on my body.
Health update: being referred to a rheumatologist. My doctor said I clearly show signs of an autoimmune disease due to my levels being extremely high alongside my symptoms. Also a sleep study because I most likely have sleep apnea causing hypoxia.
Mister Blue Sky...
I'll never be as perfect as I wanna be. Days where I feel all is lost. Sometimes... I feel inferior. But there are people who enjoy my company, and bring a smile to my face!
I'm not in it for being popular, just to bring joy and laughter to others!
Bless you all kindly'vali 💛✨️
