i'll never be able to get the time that i wasted here back. or anywhere, really. there was never any room in any part of the world in the year 2026 for someone like me. judge me all you want for being like this publically. i'll listen when you start materializing better conditions for your community
once again. everyone's so supportive of neurodivergent people until they start needing any amount of anything that's even a slight inconvenience. this has been and will always be the case for me. even a hypothetical neurodivergent person gets more understanding and care and support
everyone that used to actually say anything to stuff like this is long gone. the community i used to have here died at some point and now i'm not sure if things could ever go back to the way they used to be. particularly close to just giving up on hypno entirely
1k followers yet no meaningful interactions with my peers beyond surface level one sided sexual interactions
so many eyes yet no engagement beyond the extrapolation of value from my living corpse
the more i think about it the more i realize how many people i've met from here have been borderline parasitical in my life and the more i just want to be done with it entirely
i'm actively looking for reasons to keep going. people haven't given me any
doomed to be an outsider of my own life and work, puppeting around a shell of my personality for people to eat up because if i don't then i spend every day alone and unproductive
i don't think i've ever felt more discouraged as a creator, both in nsfw and sfw spaces
