if you are looking for a thing to replace it in your vocab, I had a lot of success with thinking of smth really hyperbolic and silly to say instead 'I'm going to explode into confetti' 'I'm gonna sprint a marathon' etc
chu⁷: Little Boy Suga's Big Boy Balls
cw// Please stop using kms/kys. It's easy to use and trendy. It can seem comedic. It's not.
What you're doing is joking about suicide. No one should ever joke about suicide. When you use it without tagging, someone is heartbroken over again. Or someone with ideation is being told to think about it.
